and if you absolutely had to push a romance for JJ, honestly I’d rather you just stick with will. I can totally see her thinking reid is cute in a little-brother way, but actually being together?? no no no. my girl would be doing way too much
I hate how hard the writers committed to jj/reid in S14… the confession, the first love thing, that look during emily’s parallel-universe speech… all that beautiful ambiguity around jj and you had to close it off with THIS
@Quinoa4400@mariahniccole that tiny flicker of disappointment when she finds out carrie’s grandparents are taking her… and then the smile on her face chasing declan around the living room 😭 yeah i think about those scenes a lot
@mariahniccole given the way emily grew up, i can’t imagine she never thought about what kind of mother she’d be. how she’d do it differently. how she’d make sure her kid never had to wonder if they were loved unconditionally.
@ScorpSik exactly. that grey area is what fascinates me most. i don’t think it only changed how emily saw doyle. i think it changed how she saw herself too.
hot take: i think emily genuinely had feelings for doyle. not enough to forget who he was or choose him over the mission, but enough that lauren wasn’t entirely a lie.
@filmsreid gideon was fascinating, but the bau never felt like a family around him. he barely remembered garcia’s name, was so cold to emily, and reid was really the only one he had a personal bond with. once rossi came in, the whole team dynamic felt warmer and much more like a family.
i wish english had a word for 委屈. “hurt” is too broad, “wronged” and “unfair” are too external. 委屈 is that ache when you’ve been hurt unfairly, but there’s nowhere for the feeling to go, so you just carry it quietly.
piano man makes me think doyle left emily with more than the fear her body still remembered. she cared about him, turned something real into part of the operation, then later genuinely wanted him dead. none of it ended when the operation did.
and Lauren episode literally gives us: “that goes for lying to yourself even more so than lying to another.” you cannot put that line over this story and expect me to believe every feeling lauren had was fake.
and she kept the gimmel ring for years. not just because it represented the future doyle thought they had, but because i don’t think she could throw it away and pretend none of it counted just because it was undercover. she lived that lie. she had to carry what it cost.
when she learns about declan, she doesn’t just try to save the kid. she offers doyle a way for all three of them to leave together — she has resources, contacts, a way out. that is really not emotionally neutral.