laura

hot and sad / vent / 28

[laura @lauraislosingit]

i’m gonna make banana bread this afternoon

[laura @lauraislosingit]

relax for a moment and enjoy this summer thunderstorm with me 🩶

[laura @lauraislosingit]

at my parents house and i’m so tired but i can’t sleep and i’m just so anxious i HATE this

[laura @lauraislosingit]

to do list in the house:
finish painting bedroom
try on every single item of clothing i wear and donate stuff
digitize my old music performance videos
finish fire pit in the backyard
organize glass
text art studio and sell off some of my glass
make spice rack
organize kitchen

[laura @lauraislosingit]

i think it’s going to take until mid-july for it to actually settle in. the 7 days at home coming up i think won’t feel real or good

[laura @lauraislosingit]

3 days at river
7 days at home
5 days in mountains
2 days at home
4 days in city
and then back to only my house for who knows how long

[laura @lauraislosingit]

the fear and anxiety is still so crippling but idk i’m excited to just have girl house for a little while

[laura @lauraislosingit]

today is the day :(((((

[laura @lauraislosingit]

posting to remember the day i saw this bc i felt sooo connected to it i think this next chapter has to be good

[laura @lauraislosingit]

(except they’re too fragile to really go in the garden so i have them displayed in a vase inside)

[laura @lauraislosingit]

my garden stakes from glass blowing class came out so cute :)

[laura @lauraislosingit]

my cramps are SO bad holy fuck

[laura @lauraislosingit]

we’ve had a lot of talks and i don’t think it’s forever, i don’t want it to be

[laura @lauraislosingit]

grrrrrr

[laura @lauraislosingit]

revenge body starts now

[laura @lauraislosingit]

need to get back in the GYM w WEIGHTS

[laura @lauraislosingit]

want to go back to a month ago

[laura @lauraislosingit]

tmi but i only puked a teensy bit this morning after waking up can i get a hell yeah for PROGRESSSSS not waking up at 4am full body sweats and heaving EVERYTHING

[laura @lauraislosingit]

woke up sad again

[laura @lauraislosingit]

signed up for a pride roller skating event next week!! i can’t skate but i bought a pair in the pandemic. i hope they aren’t dry rotted (can that happen??) i can always rent some at the venue too