I'm not toxic. I'm reactive. There's a person somewhere calling me difficult, and they're leaving out the part where they pushed every boundary I set, ignored every signal I gave, and then acted shocked when I finally stopped being gentle about it.
girls will survive horrors beyond comprehension and still give love and light and keep it pushing but a man who had one fuckass breakup at 15 will make it his entire personality and be an asshole forever
“But you survived” I disassociate, like a lot. My heart drops when someone raises their voice. I shut down very easily. I'm far too observant. I always feel like a burden. I isolate often. But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
parents are so crazy because they can say the most fucked up shit to you when your brain is forming and it sets the tone for your whole adult mind set and then they forget about it the next day