im so jealous of non disordered people’s ability to just eat and enjoy things without food noise and guilt all day, even if i gain back the weight the disordered thoughts never cease
i rarely hear anyone talk about how BORING it is having an ed.. i feel like i'm living in limbo waiting for when i can eat next or for the next time i weigh myself to see if number on the scale has gone down,, and nothing else matters bc i'm just too tired