Functional depression is real. You work, joke around. Take care of people around you. But mentally you are drowning in your own thoughts and nobody knows it.
girl to girl.... put you first. hit the gym consistently. keep your nails done. eat GOOD food. do the hobbies you enjoy. take your vitamins. 9-10 hours of sleep. buy that new workout set. delete distractions. water your grass so much that you don't give a shit about anyone.