Getting so close to 16 bmi, I might try to not eat the whole day without throwing up or having heart palpitations so I can atleast get down to 103 tmr, so mad I cant track my steps properly tho like wtf
I wish ftf made a toggle button so you could not want to be beast or so you join a game and its always in intermission bc I hate waiting so muchhhhhhh ugh annoying game
I miss my pc so much, I had yan sim, lethal company, minecraft, roblox, ddlc, it was a shitty office pc that could barely run 12fps on Minecraft but damn it was better than nothing, why did I have to break my monitor and hit someone on the head with the pc ughhhhhh im stupiddd
Mind you I never had heart palpitations up until this past year, I haven't even been restricting enough to get them, tho my alcohol, cigarette and pill consumption also takes a toll on my heart but WHATEVER, I FEEL FAKEEE UGHHH
I hate that other people can go deeper into starving than me (i dont have anorexia) bc I always get heart palpitations after day 1 and it scares me so I eat, or I feel like im gonna throw up so I eat, i feel so fat, only 4 years into this also, fml atleast im losing weight tho
False alarm guys im pretty sure it was the pepto bismal I drank the night before, or im just gaslighting myself to believe that but wtr I dont really care if I die I just want one last perc before I do
Has anyone who's a minor got taken to the doctors with crispy lungs and the doctors didnt send you away, im scared of being sent somewhere for my ed or my lungs, I just want to know if my stomach is bleeding bruh pls help/gen
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My lungs omg they are so annoying, yk how in kindergarten they had you breathing through straws to deter you from smoking, I feel like im.breathing through a big straw, I dont want it to get any smaller, I need drugs