ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully)

who the fuck am I kidding? (Amalfi o Alfie, he/him, 22)

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

ts felt like an exposed nerve ending in my brain 😵

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@xanaxplusx u wanntto moot me on ig sooo bad 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

big 22

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

reason i was looking into it in the first place was for substance/medication induced psychosis

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

dsm-5 says i have stimulant use disorder, for mild cocaine and severe amphetamine-type drugs 🫩

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@bladie4193 this is what happened to me, hospitalized for a kidney infection from severe dehydration because of how bad the energy drink problem was 💀 got out bought my first g and never looked back

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@freakbargeekbar yuhh ofc i wasnt tryna be superior or nothing the experiences are different for those grown dependent on their prescription vs the illegal recreational way w a drug-dealer so i just cant relate 🤷‍♂️ but i felt like such a junkie freak on there cuz of that 💀

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

browsing r/adderalladdiction and 90% of the people on there do significantly less than I do on a daily basis and have been on it for way longer than i have 🫩

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@2ootsie4 FOR HOURS⁉️🫩 naww molly will have me down bad dont get me wrong same for alc obv, but adderall is a whole different beast 😮‍💨 ion even need to fuck on adderall just jo all night

[fenlon @1fenlon]

being an addict is so ridiculous. like oh noo i can't stop having fun to the point that it's killing me

[seraph @despaird0ll]

to love me is to suffer me

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

okayyyy sono rimasto che 5 GIORNI SENZA DI DROGHE damn near 100 ore senza adderall e più lungo for coke 😮‍💨😮‍💨 maaa quello ieri 🫩 d'allora ho avuto like 12-15 maybe more oggi

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@punish3dx 😮‍💨😮‍💨 dai dai capisco

[chrys 🪐 @chrysanthemm988]

don’t need a diagnosis i’m just Fucked Up

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@KatisHighasf my ex bsf had a fight like this the last time we spoke 🫩 atp u just know they were wrong 🤷‍♂️

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@glamourmagik I have id as queer and for 5 yrs and I feel so much happier w it than I did w bisexual. only thing is most the people u tell just call u bi anyway 😭

[ALFIE 🎱🇮🇹 (ed/drgrwt recov hopefully) @lemoncellofello]

@punish3dx put in a good word for me too plz 🙏

[۟ @ragingxngxl]

Convincing my inner abused child that the drugs that gave me comfort and reassurance when no one else would aren't no longer good for me feels like betraying yourself, a little bit.

[*ੈ✩‧𓏲*𖦹★ @m0llygurl333]

taking a break from relationships to focus on substance abuse