2024 motto:
Restart, refocus, and readjust as many times as you need to. But don't fold. You're never going to be fully ready or excellent at everything. You're going to learn as you go. But you have to start. You have to get in the game to actually play.
Getting yo shit together requires a deep level of honesty wit yourself , you gotta be able to look at yourself in the mirror & be willing to accept flaws & behavior that's not allowing you to grow , self evaluation is difficult but it's extremely necessary.
Healing taught me that honesty won’t ruin a real thing. Speaking on your feelings won’t lose you anything worth having. Setting boundaries won’t scare off proper people. & authenticity won’t cost you genuine relationships. Remember that the next time you feel like shit because someone pulled away from you for respecting yourself, sharing your feelings, setting a boundary, &/or holding them accountable.
God,
Thank you for a fresh new week. Thank you for a new beginning. I pray for a spiritual awakening within myself. A heart consumed of You and not my own selfishness. I want to honor you in all of my ways I pray for protection over my mind and my heart with peace that follows.
A healing stage is disgust. Yes, disgust. You will be DISGUSTED by the people whose love you sought. You will feel embarrassed about the choices you made and the people who had access to you who didn’t deserve it. Feel this feeling then let it go.
That will NEVER be you again.
You have to force yourself to get up early. You have to hold yourself accountable and evaluate your priorities. If you aren't going to help yourself, nobody will. Everything starts with you. Yes, you. Fight for your dreams, and your dreams will fight for you.
Should’ve never donated bags of clothes to a lady who used her son as an excuse just to swap them for drugs…. I lose SO MUCH respect for people like this.
Right now I can’t AFFORD anymore situations in my life that bring out the worst in me. It’s exhausting & requires too much for me to recover from. I need calmness and peace in my life. Anything outside of that I don’t have the capacity for.