just found out from my doctor that after years of abusing my body with bad food and drugs, my cholesterol is perfect and my liver and kidneys are in outstanding health. i feel like i'm learning the wrong lessons here.
It's so exhausting being in this endless cycle of deterioration, my sense of self slipping further and further out of my grasp. While I struggle in vain to grasp the few flickerings of a personality that I have, my hope to carry on exponentially dwindles.
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