(tw lwk a vent) reminded myself of my ex purposefully just to see she in fact still does not feel an ounce of empathy for what she did which just made me feel shitty
After being told how it was really behind my back (he held this from me for a while so I was quite hurt by that) I acknowledged and thanked my real friend for this, and for trying to keep me involved but it was apparently getting between them and the others so I gracefully just
My yoga and workout routine kind of fell apart but was still trying to keep it together, we moved cities to try and save money, ended up losing everything we had and then had 5 major deaths in one year - three friends and two family members. Woof. My dieting fell apart, too.
Him and I are great but he's all I got and clearly I can't go to him with certain issues because his point of view on his family and baby mama is different so I keep it in. Sometimes I just wish I could go back in time and just do me.