lewddmon personal and vent

personal account for @lewddmon
to scream and vent into the void

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

Wasted money and time just to be heartbroken... Im a fucking joke.

She's polyamorous and I couldn't even be anything more than a friend.

Everything i said and all I did... what was even the point.

I guess im just not meant to be loved or to love someone.

I'll just die alone.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

I think im done with trying to find someone. I come all the way to LA to finally meet someone that i been talking to and have a thing for just to be heartbroken. I even told them that I like them but they couldn't bother to tell me that they didn't feel the same way.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

What was all the point of my advances then? I fucking hate myself for being like this... All I wanted was to love and be loved by someone again. If they shot me down before hand then I wouldn't have felt like this. I wouldn't have came here expecting to find love.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

I just want something good to happen in my life for once... something like a miracle or something to keep going... I just don't want to feel like this anymore... I just want to actually feel like I'm alive and happy for once...

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

Im at that point where I just want to give up... I just want to give up Voice acting, on life, give up on just... Everything... The only thing I'm experiencing single day is just pure stress, fatigue, anger... Basically just everything negative...

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

I just wished that we had more money so that we didn't have to worry about being in debt... Enough to just keep us stable.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

Now, what's been going on as of recent, the things I dreamt about happening in the future are starting to feel like they're going to stay as dreams. I just wanted to quit my current job and make voice acting my main job and later on go on to doing other things like streaming.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

I just something good would happen for once in my life for once... something like a miracle or something... I just don't want to feel like this anymore... I just want to actually feel like I'm alive and happy.

[lewddmon personal and vent @lewddmonvent]

I just wished that we had more money so that we didn't have to worry about being in debt... Enough to just keep us stable.