52 days since my mom died. it still doesnβt even feel fucking real.
like what do you mean i canβt just pick up the phone and call her. what do you mean she wasnβt at my wedding. what do you mean my kids canβt facetime her anymore.
fuck dude, this shit sucks.
losing my mom has truly affected me in ways i canβt even begin to explain.
i think about her so often & i just sob because i truly canβt believe that i canβt just pick up the phone and call her.
i feel like iβm drowning in grief. i keep pushing through but i cry myself to sleep more than i let anyone know.
my heart hurts man. this shit sucks.
i think the hardest part about losing my mom is that my kids are so young. they wonβt be able to remember the amazing grandma she was.
thatβs the part that hurts the most. because she was the best gamma in the world.
& now, they donβt have one.