52 days since my mom died. it still doesnโt even feel fucking real.
like what do you mean i canโt just pick up the phone and call her. what do you mean she wasnโt at my wedding. what do you mean my kids canโt facetime her anymore.
fuck dude, this shit sucks.
losing my mom has truly affected me in ways i canโt even begin to explain.
i think about her so often & i just sob because i truly canโt believe that i canโt just pick up the phone and call her.
i feel like iโm drowning in grief. i keep pushing through but i cry myself to sleep more than i let anyone know.
my heart hurts man. this shit sucks.
i think the hardest part about losing my mom is that my kids are so young. they wonโt be able to remember the amazing grandma she was.
thatโs the part that hurts the most. because she was the best gamma in the world.
& now, they donโt have one.