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27🍒 • mama⚡️ • 🪼🦋🩵

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

52 days since my mom died. it still doesn’t even feel fucking real.
like what do you mean i can’t just pick up the phone and call her. what do you mean she wasn’t at my wedding. what do you mean my kids can’t facetime her anymore.

fuck dude, this shit sucks.

[soup🍓 @thrluv]

i like my men smelling like provider energy & emotional maturity

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

to say something & actually be heard & see changes is something beautiful

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the urges are fucking killing me.

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trying to shift my thoughts from sad & grieving to hopeful & lucky is so fucking hard

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

losing my mom has truly affected me in ways i can’t even begin to explain.
i think about her so often & i just sob because i truly can’t believe that i can’t just pick up the phone and call her.

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

my non verbal son looked at me in sam’s club today & said “mama” 😭😭😭

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i feel like i’m drowning in grief. i keep pushing through but i cry myself to sleep more than i let anyone know.
my heart hurts man. this shit sucks.

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new additions 🫶🏼

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hi friends 🦋

[☔ @Whotfismick]

when people think you're ignoring them but life got you like this:

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

i think the hardest part about losing my mom is that my kids are so young. they won’t be able to remember the amazing grandma she was.
that’s the part that hurts the most. because she was the best gamma in the world.
& now, they don’t have one.

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

the family you create needs to come before the family you came from.

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my heart hurts knowing my mom isn’t there with me tomorrow.

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hanging on by a thread

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if i live to 55+, i’ll have had lived more years without my mom than i did with 🥺

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2020 ————> 2026

loving the growth in confidence ♥️

[naz @hisyokki]

Son zamanlarda kimsenin haberinin olmadığı ruh halim.

[𝚊𝚙 @lexcoded]

i’ve been so angry since my mom died. i really don’t know how to move on from this. it hurts so fucking bad. i just want the hurt to go away.