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diary

[liam @liamskywall8899]

i used to think i was ”hard” and decent looking. i look back at my insta posts and wonder how i could be so embarrassing, how i could be so delusional and how big of a charity case i am. being friends w me being tg w me must be so embarrassing for the other person. :{

[liam @liamskywall8899]

@that_one_girlie Hii

[liam @liamskywall8899]

@cxcx_8283 hi , i game :)

[liam @liamskywall8899]

why is being happy so hard. why can i not stop coming back to killing myself every now and then. why can i not be normal. i guess ill always ask myself that. maybe killing myself is the answers . i really don’t know, all i know is that this really feels like the cure.

[liam @liamskywall8899]

so, she has now agreed that i am ugly but that it doesn’t bother her. indirectly ofc and i just don’t know how that makes me feel. i mean maybe something in me is finally satisfied. but another part of me now knows that because of my duck face i’ll sooner or later be alone :}.

[liam @liamskywall8899]

now is 5/10 good ? does it mean i’m good looking to her ? i do sometimes slip up and tell her that ion think i look too good and she just says “its the complete opposite”. Idk maybe the question im asking is how do i get comfortable with being ugly.

[liam @liamskywall8899]

i just got together with this new girl, literally everything i’ve ever asked for. she’s nice to me caring and thinks i have a good personality, all the goodies. i finally gathered the courage to ask her what she would rate me looks-wise and she gave me a 5/10.

[liam @liamskywall8899]

could someone help me ? i wanna ima just need a lil push please #suicidetwt

[liam @liamskywall8899]

it really sucks being ugly. i used to think that maybe losing weight would make me more likeable. kinda deep into my fitness journey just realised that some things u just can’t change. might just be born to die

[liam @liamskywall8899]

suicide just sounds soo good. jus too pussy to go thru with it. someone gotta help a guy out