I've written next to nothing this year, & I honestly feel like what I have written didn't turn out quite how I wanted
I have no inspiration, and I also lost the joy of writing somewhere (after my wreck?) But I'm slowly finding it so it's fun again, not a source of self-criticism
Я всё ещё хихикаю с того, как они украсили отель к приезду Люцифера. Там и новогодняя мишура, и дождик, и плакат к гендер-пати, и слово “welcome” неправильно написано
Это потрясающе 🙏🙏
I do not need the source of a ship to confirm in order for me to ship them. I was raised in the trenches of ff dot net and tumblr, I just need them to stare at one another for a half second for me to be fueled. Shipping isn’t about proof it’s about the strength of your perv heart
I have to like. Actively not think about AB and any sort of tour because I have to miss so many things for financial reasons. Tbh it’s one reason I haven’t been online as much. The reminders of concerts and fanmeets I’m missing sucks.
@twoshiningmoons aww ely you're the sweetest! i hope to back online more as well soon! life has just been... so tiring.
but you're a wonderful person too, an absolute gift to the fandom with all you've created for us!!! one of my very favorite daily's 100% 🫶
@lrvdks It’s natural to go through spells where you feel just… SO shitty about not just your writing, but the process of writing. Doubt creeps into creativity & honestly? That’s okay. You’ll get back on your feet way faster than the 6 years I took lol (2016 to 2022) I’m rooting for you!
@cherriebooms Lots of negative shit happening tbh but somehow earning a net positive? Would still like a break from the bs tho 😭
I’ll miss your writing but sometimes it do be like that!
@lrvdks@cherriebooms Awww you’re so sweet! And I love love that fic myself. Still probably my fav AouBoom tho it was my first!
I’ve been out of fandom but I’d love to write for them again one day 💜💛
-blood pressure med created major depressive episode
-spent $9k on fixing all the shit in my house that broke within like 2 months
-car wreck activated old trauma (yay)
Alllll have had silver linings though and have actually created a net positive, but bro I’m fuckin tired
Soooooo life has been like:
-car wreck
-bought a car that wasn’t all it was supposed to be
-high blood pressure + chest pain episode 60 miles from home —> ER
-complex migraine at work (hospital), coworkers sent me to the ER
-lithium toxicity incident (ER)
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