I expected my life to look a certain way by 20. It doesn’t. life has humbled me in a way, i could have never imagined.
here’s to still wanting to trying though.
1. missed my dream college, not once, but twice. still learning to let go.
2. i scored 90 in my class 12 board exams, which sucks because i chose a stream i thought i could excel in, something i wanted to study.
9. i thought i would make friends if i just be THERE, i failed in keeping boundaries, and felt used, mostly.
failed at relationships because i settled for TOO LESS.
10. i like creating content, but the self hate is so real, that it does not let me be consistent.
guy showed me around his campus, saw the sunset together, made me listen to his favourite song, only to let me know that he wanted no strings attached.
we are in trenches. 😐👎