Sea Phoenix

This is the story of a little Birdie rising from the ashes. Trying to find my wings again. Content will be dependent on my mood. 18+ ONLY please.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

Trying to find accounts I followed when I was just a Birdie. I feel like a damn stalker. I had friends in here that I think of often and truly miss them. If you get a request from me please consider accepting. I’ve missed you!

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I’ve not dated since we broke up. Went on one date. Reason? I thought I was super messed up. Didn’t go to therapy. And terrified I’ll find someone like him again. And lose my boundaries. I’m ashamed to go to my therapist with this. But I need to.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

So much has happened in my crazy chaotic life. The “boy” I dated. The one that contacted me all the time. Well he just broke up with his gf. Gf contacted me. He did the same things to her. The good part I’m taking away from this is…

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

He does scare me. He does intense things and blames them on diabetes sugar lows or adhd. I’m hoping he doesn’t contact me. Last time was early July. They’ve been together since February.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I used to love my job. I have an amazing job. But they sucked my soul completely dry today. They’ve been slowly working on it. Almost walked out today.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

So this shit show of a day…

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

Where the hell is my fall snuggle buddy?!!!! I need leggings and a fluffy sweater and coffee and a collar around my neck. Wtf universe?!!!

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I had a moment today. I laid on the floor. Cried. Wondered wth I’m doing with my life. Then I got up. Took a shower. Did my hair and make up. Plastered on a fake smile. Then went about my day. This is my life.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I hope everyone in Ida’s path is ok. Please stay safe!!!! And to the emergency people staying or heading that way… stay safe too!!

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I just had no idea. I want to be spoiled again though. Bc not being spoiled sucks. But this is all heading me towards a giant rainbow right?! I hope so. I’m done with stormy weather for a while.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

Realized something in the shower. I’m spoiled. Like not the cutesy spoiled. I’m that too. Well not now. Anyway!!!!! Spoiled. As in I have always gotten everything I wanted. Jobs. Boys. Whatever. Always. I’m not saying this to brag. I’m saying it to say this is a damn wake up…

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

for me. Not getting any guy that I’m interested in. Not getting the job. Buying a house that has fucked up plumbing. I seriously have been spoiled and privileged my entire life. And wow I am so sorry. For those I overlooked in their struggles. Not that I meant to…

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

@Davethespanko Sad. And wine.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

Existence is chaos. No truer words.

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

@frustrated_1ne Cruel fuckery. This now resides in my phrase booklet to whip out at the most inopportune times. Thank you!!!! I’m soooooo using this today!! Get warm!!

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I’ve been having the most fucked up sex dreams the past two nights!!!!! UGH!!!!!!

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I had quite the cathartic day. Not finished with this catharsis yet though I’m afraid. But one day, when I’m all done with the expulsion of everything yuck, I’ll have that opportunity to rise up again and again. Good healing vibes to anyone out there that need it ❤️ ♥️

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

@Curious_Sub92 😱

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

I’m exploring my witchy roots. Made moon water in the blue moon last night. And set my crystals out to recharge. Gathering my intentions and rocking this shit. I hope. Just downed my moon water set with healing intentions and the ability to say goodbye. 🤞

[Sea Phoenix @lil_SeaPhoenix]

@brattylilwitch I am squealing like a little demon possessed!!!!!! Omg I love these sooooooooooooo incredibly much!!!!!!!!!