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[♡ @lililymic]

i love you and i’m
sorry i can’t give you
the future you’d want

[♡ @lililymic]

i just know it

[♡ @lililymic]

were cuddling rn, but he’s going to leave me

[♡ @lililymic]

he’s going to leave me

[♡ @lililymic]

i told him how i felt after it accidentally spilled

[♡ @lililymic]

i ducked up

[♡ @lililymic]

that got us **

[♡ @lililymic]

but no i can’t tell him how i fucking feel because that us fucking nowhere

[♡ @lililymic]

i fucking hate this, it feels like he’s punishing me like a fucking dog

[♡ @lililymic]

he’s basically giving me the silent treatment, he needs ‘space’

[♡ @lililymic]

don’t get a partner because this is the worst amount of pain i’ve ever been in

[♡ @lililymic]

don’t date

[♡ @lililymic]

i muted him everywhere to try not to think abt him, but everything reminds me of him so what do i even do

[♡ @lililymic]

i don’t think we’re making it to two years, i think he’s gonna break up with me soon. And to cope with that fear i’m going to cut myself YAYYYYYYYYYYYY

[♡ @lililymic]

but i never recovered in terms of sh, still do it basically minimum once a week LOL fuck me

[♡ @lililymic]

i gained all of the weight back plus more btw, i’m at like 165 pounds which is like bmi 28, i’ve gained over 10 bmi points which is insane

[♡ @lililymic]

the pain was actually so painful that it distracted me from the pain of potentially losing him, which is like the entire point of why im cutting myself lol

[♡ @lililymic]

why do i have to be so mentally ill

[♡ @lililymic]

i miss him so much

[♡ @lililymic]

accidentally hit baby beans first swipe ok accident after i had a fight w my boyfie