I will never, ever beg people to stay in my life again. If you want to leave, okay 💖 if you don’t want to stay through my dark times, that isn’t a friendship I want. Because you were never a real friend if you can’t deal with people who express they are going through hard times and depression. I always express my apologies and try to make up for any wrong doings. No one is obligated to reciprocate or deal with people they don’t vibe with. But don’t ever call someone your best friend or soul sister and make a friend group just to exile me out of it because you think I’m a horrible person. Because at the end of the day, I know I have pure intentions for everyone in my life. I will always be there for my people when they are down. I don’t have to explain myself anymore to people who just really don’t care about anything but having a good time together. And then talk badly about me behind my back again and again. Shits been hard for me for a long time, ups and downs. I’ve struggled with depression for SO long. So much I’ve been through that I haven’t been public about, since I was young losing my only guardian, when my ex husband jumped off a building in 2021 off the 7th story and somehow survived?! I lost so much weight and hair from stress, losing myself to depression while still trying to feel sexy and fun on set for everyone. Never speaking about how traumatized I was after that and my health declined so much because I repressed my feelings for the sake of my fan base and not looking a mess on social media, struggling with toxic on and off again friendships in this toxic industry where people use each other for clout…. People just want to be surrounded by cool people until they realize people go through shit and they don’t wanna deal with it. Well, I’m not afraid to reach out to people.. although it feels like a burden at times (friends helping each other through hard times shouldn’t feel like a burden…) and I always apologize for MY sadness affecting other people’s moods. But I won’t apologize for being human anymore. I have too much love in my heart to waste it on people who never intended on staying in my life. And I thank the wonderful people who see all my bad sides and decide to stay anyways. I love you all. I promise I’ll try everyday to be a happier, and more productive person. But I can’t promise I won’t be sad again. Shit happens. But so does life 💖 anyways sorry for my yapping, love yall.