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Trey Gillespie 4/7/16❤ Rest easy Dee.💕 ride high in the clouds Q❤

[Lil @lilly_gren]

Q's last ride was so beautiful and perfect. I am still in shock... I love you so much big bro💕 until we meet again❤

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I have done so well with you being gone for god knows how long..
but tonight knowing it will only be one night I lose my shit.
Wtf🤦🏼‍♀️

[Lil @lilly_gren]

Everyone always says “I am here for you if you ever need anything”

But who am I supposed to call when I’m super depressy and everyone is sleeping…

Straight up struggling but don’t want to inconvenience anyone🤦🏼‍♀️

[Lil @lilly_gren]

It’s so fucking exhausting being there for everyone you love and putting them first.
Only for them to not be there for you when you need them.

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I love that as soon as I start to cry Tango jumps up into my lap to make me feel better 😭😭

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I should have gone to bed.

Now I’m fucking pissed, upset and depressed.

[Lil @lilly_gren]

@JodiGeil So crazy!!! It got so dark😳

[Lil @lilly_gren]

And wished I'd knew the answer why
I feel so dead inside
And I'm just gettin' tired
Of puttin' on fake smiles for everyone but me
'Cause I just can't stand to see

[Lil @lilly_gren]

Pro tip if you cry all your makeup off you don’t have to take it off🤷🏼‍♀️

[Lil @lilly_gren]

“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
Okay true but have you ever been laying in bed and every part of you is aching for their touch and you can’t do anything but cry and scream?
Bc this shit is no joke. Also I’m not okay😅

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I’m not okay but it’s okay because no one asked me if I was okay (this weekend) and I haven’t cried in front of anyone in weeks. So the fake smile is going strong 💪🏼

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I miss Trey so fucking much it hurts…😭😭

[⚡️Baylee⚡️ @HansenBayleee]

My depression is kicking my ASS and I’m freaking struggling.

[Lil @lilly_gren]

@DalyLimit Yeah thanks

[Lil @lilly_gren]

I just need Trey to come home and cuddle me and tell me everything will be okay…

[Lil @lilly_gren]

@katelynngren I love you so very much ❤️

[Lil @lilly_gren]

Being suicidal is weird.
Like I don’t want to be here anymore… but at the same time if I wasn’t who would take care of my puppy tomorrow?
So we live to see another day.

[Lil @lilly_gren]

Everyone says “I’m here if you ever need anything”
Truth is I do need something… I need some one physically here… I need a fucking hug.
Being alone fucking sucks hairy balls.

[Ashley Flowers @Ash_Flowers]

💔

[miss amanda🌚 @stargurhl]

this !!! #gabbypetitio