hayden is so tragic even in canon tho cause like he dedicated his life to hockey and being shanes bestie and he finds out he’s even done that wrong, average at hockey and has to unlearn his whole life to like ilya to be a good bestie and if he doesn’t he’s evil ugh UGJH
i swing between grotesquely perverted and completely disinterested in all things sexual without any rhyme or reason. it just happens and im stuck whichever way until things shift again.