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Still waiting 😔

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it but what I mean is like having a SINGLE person dm me asking me if I want to do something. I have a friend of mine that would invite me out to stuff last year. Im not going to say I took it for granted, Ive gotten good at appreciating what I have, but darn man I didnt know the

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it but what I mean is like having a SINGLE person dm me asking me if I want to do something. I have a friend of mine that would invite me out to stuff last year. Im not going to say I took it for granted, Ive gotten good at appreciating what I have, but darn man I didnt know the

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Smh drunk and feeling sad thoughts

[kael @kael333_]

sorry i have to repost this pokemon fans

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I hate being the person that tries to set things up and invites people to things. I'm already not great at organizing and stuff. Why do I need to be the one to always take initiative and organize things?

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This looks really nice

[POPTime @poptime]

Lay's anunciou nova identidade visual.

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because it hurts the soul in a "self-esteem, why did no one think to have me be here for my friend" too type of way. And I'm not really too inclined to bringing it up, its not about me, but darn does it feel awful

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And on the wording of "not allowed" maybe its poorly worded. Maybe that is the case, maybe its more so not "thought of". No one has messaged me or considered me. It feels bad for two reasons. One is that I want to genuinely be there for my friend(s) and I can't and the second is

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It actually makes me feel really badly too. When my friends are going through a tough time, why am I not allowed to accompany them with other people when trying to make them feel better or support them? Is it because people think im not mature enough? Do I need to look more

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me.

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It actually makes me feel really badly too. When my friends are going through a tough time, why am I not allowed to accompany them with other people when trying to make them feel better or support them? Is it because people think im not mature enough? Do I need to look more

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depressed? Do I need to vent and complain about how things are actually going for me to people? Do I appear too happy go lucky on the outside? I genuinely dont understand what I need to do. Also doesn't really help the circumstance of me feeling like not many people actually know

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case why am I wasting my time here. Friendship is an investment and unfortunately sometimes you put a lot of time and energy into it and someone just ghosts you for seemingly no reason or in other cases you realize you value someone a lot more than they do you

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And more on this like I dont play games, if you're not going to be honest with me I'm not going to engage with this. I actually hate so much when something is brought up genuinely and its responded to with memes or a bit like do you either... a. Take me for a retard and think

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I hate lack of transparency so much. I asked someone where they went/what did you do today and all I recieve is some retarded meme answer of "side quest" and "its hard to explain". I honestly need to do what's best for me I feel and just distance myself from all of this bs

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I'm just going to be like "oh alright yeah this isnt really weird" or b. Dont respect me enough to give me a clear answer ( and saying I dont want to tell you counts as a clear answer although in that case it does hurt the soul ) or c. Dont trust me enough to tell me and in that

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or didnt even fathom what the stark difference in mood and atmosphere would be without his presence.

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I also give up too. I try to create hang outs or find things to do. Honestly for me at the very deepest level all I want is to spend time with people. I consider going on errands or just getting fast food with people a great joy of my day. I try to create hang outs and stuff but

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it but what I mean is like having a SINGLE person dm me asking me if I want to do something. I have a friend of mine that would invite me out to stuff last year. Im not going to say I took it for granted, Ive gotten good at appreciating what I have, but darn man I didnt know the

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festivals, or even just hike or buy a rice ball and eat it near a mountain for cheap. Sure I felt lonely to an extent in Japan as well, but it didnt hit the self esteem, its a natural by product of moving to a foreign country and sucking at the language

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I hate lack of transparency so much. I asked someone where they went/what did you do today and all I recieve is some retarded meme answer of "side quest" and "its hard to explain". I honestly need to do what's best for me I feel and just distance myself from all of this bs

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man I miss living in Japan. Having a car definitely is such a quality of life improvement but I've never felt so free before. Going outside the house at 2 am and going on a walk to wherever I want and listening to music is something I really miss. I could go to fun events,