Cyrus fell asleep for the last time yesterday. I write this in absolute silence. The apartment that was too small for him now feels smaller in his absence. He is everywhere even though he isn’t. When I hear a knock, I expect his bark but it is going to be quiet from now on.
realizing that all the wounds I healed when trying to find love have been reactivated in entrepreneurship. It triggers all of unhealed parts of myself around success, worthiness & uncertainty.
the good news is I've done the work before so I can do it again.
Giving myself permission to be a burned out person in need of healing, first and foremost. My keyboard is back out and playing ludovico einaudi is my therapy 🥰
I've been craving a slow life filled with art and relaxation, and I will let myself live that. For now.
Today's positives:
- another sale! 🥳
- audited my product page focusing on creating more trust and less friction psychologically for the interested - I've always avoided certain aspects of growth design bc idk it feels dark to me but.. learning that that's not necessarily true
Today's positives:
- got a irl compliment when wearing my Doberman necklace reminding me that jewelry often needs to be seen in person & that I'm not delusional to think it's breathtaking 💕
- someone dmed to ask where she can get the husky pendant cos it's beautiful (she probably later saw the price and decided against it but one day someone will ask and be ok with the price point of jewelry made with precious metals)
Today's positives:
- remembered to breathe through hard moments and find compassion
- my first ad is driving new traffic to the site with people spending meaningful time showing interest! No conversions yet but good data to form next steps on
- finished designing placards for my first booth
Today's positives:
- first sale 🥲 it did so much. It really helps me feel like this is possible
- had a session with a former coach who helped me access self-compassion which I know will be crucial for this journey
- started a conversation on a potential custom commission, in gold!!
Today was actually really good 😊
Today's positives:
- got a deposit for my first custom commission 😭 in gold ✨💛
- an inquiry for a watercolor portrait commission (!!! this surprised me)
- packed and dropped off first order at the post office 🥰
Yesterday I cried into my rug wondering if the silence meant I made a huge mistake. Today a real human is waiting for a package from The Precious Dog 😭