Tw: VENT
Why does it seem so easy for people to have a constant stream of thought, just one voice in your head that thinks what you want to think, why can everyone have constant equal empathy towards everyone in their lives, and think before they speak or act.
Im not right in the head im a bad person, and i tell everyone that, i desperately try to convince them, and they never listen, they always think im exaggerating or that they xan fix me or some shit. And so they get close and then i fuck up and they leave. And then i forget.
I wanna be someone's broken pet. Kept home at all times because it's unsafe or my legs are broken, just able to draw when I'm alone, and being beaten and loved on when with the one person I'm allowed to see. #petplay#nsfw#obslovetwt#obslove
Im not a masochist because i like pain. Pain makes me feel safe. Secure and if someone is holding me while they hurt me, and reassuring me, i feel cared for. Usually i dont even want it to be sexual, i just want someone to hurt and hold me-