You’re standing on a planet with molten lava at its core. Trees are turning sunlight into air you can breathe. Your heart is beating without you asking it to. There’s a moon in the sky and bugs that glow. This whole thing is absurdly beautiful.
There is nothing I can do. And I want to. I think that is my hell. Good thing I can get away from it for a while. It always comes back. Why do I feel like hell is always there but heaven aint. Why’s heaven so hard to get to. What is heaven to me? Why can’t I change it?
@itsTseTse Not on Saturday.
Maybe on a sweet Thursday … start smoking from 4:20a.m,
Bathe by 5a.m,
Breakfast immediately after,
Make sure you’re outta the house before 6,
When you reach work you go Dey feel like Merlin.
Knowing he’s alive or dead even though I’m not his presence just knowing he is gone and I just it’s so bad I still feel it and I woke up real early and had to call him and I just it was really bad the feeling I felt
I had a bad dream about my dad and he died and I was away and in the dream I was so convinced I actually it was real and I was going crazy that I couldn’t see it that I hadn’t see him in so long and it was really bad and I couldn’t do anything and he was gone and it felt differen