cw for body image
i think recovery looks good on me, like i truly do 😭😭 and i never thought i'd say that ever. i still have lapses sometimes but they are getting fewer and further in between. my ed is not my life anymore.
i did not get a good pic before, but dinner was seasoned red lentils w/ sauteed bell peppers, tex mati wild rice, with a generous portion of avocado and hemp seeds. we got this huuge avocado from stew leonards and it's big enough to use a generous portion for like 4 sep meals 😭
many such instances of this including today but about a week ago i was visibly spiraling because i told my husband about how i was doing better. then he got me a matcha latte while i was flipping my shit and i snapped back to reality like it was a glitch
thiss my bloating is finally going down and needless to say i am very surprised that my stomach looks normal / flatter despite the amount of food i eat, since i used to get so severely bloated when eating anything close to a normal meal
i feel as if everyone i know is going thru it right now. it's my turn i guess. family problems are escalating and may affect our ability to stay living with them much longer. idk what we are going to do.
recovery has given me an obsession with pretzels, which i never wanted previously.
i also demolished a tub of sourdough pretzels and bag butter snaps recently.