$30,000 is the cost of the average wedding,
4 hours is the length of the average wedding.
Taking out a $30,000 loan to pay for a 4-hour wedding is crazy to me.
You have a narrator living in your mind called the ego. The ego is the internalized voices of people we were around most in childhood. Many people live in autopilot, sleep walking through life living in their ego's stream of thoughts.