CJ👑

4xCancer Fighter🎗😮👊🏼#pitbullmommy 🐶

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

MAybe I don’t want to do this anymore. Why did I have to get this in infection

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

So I’m meant to die horrifically at 23? Nah don’t believe it 👋🏼 Come through last minute and save my ass Please

[Sprinkle of Jesus @sprinkleofjesus]

SAY A QUICK PRAYER
“Dear God, if it’s meant to be, please make a way. I trust your plan for me. Amen!”

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Well my doctors said there’s nothing left they can do for me & that I should set up home hospice & say my goodbyes 😔🤢 I’ve been sick ever since

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

@_lilLex23 I think brio Italian grill at UTC mall is super good & I mean a little on the expensive side but..It all depends on how much youre willing to spend & if your kids are going with.. (personally I think Mothers Day is about celebrating YOU without the kids. Just you, AS a mom😅💁🏻‍♀️🍹)

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Even with my mom here it’s beyond stressful... my heart is giving out on me & it’s not fair

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

It’s only been like 2 days Max & my heart is already shaken to it’s core- I feel so sick. I’m hooked upon 5 days straight to fluids.. I’m so worried about everything & these strong ass chemos & the blood sugar issue I have that they have yet to give me a plan to take care of😔🤢

[Thick Saban ✨ @RaveenTheDream]

God I am not your strongest soldier. Please stop

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

I just don’t want to die.. I’m not ready. I’m so scared 😭😭

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

My heart is just shattered this keeps happening to me when all the doctors keeps saying I had the “good” “curable” type of cancer all these years. The list of side effects for this new treatment plan is horrifying 😭😭😭😭😭😭 worse than I’ve ever experienced before

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

I really may die this time.. if anything yeah, I’ll walk into the hospital tomorrow but I won’t be walking out; I’ll either be rolled out from being SO weak for 30 days in that place not eating or walking or I’ll be shipped back home in a box/urn cause I’ll be dead altogether

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

My cancer has never grown THIS rapidly before with a relapse🤢even my doctor said that. He didnt even want me waiting until Sunday to be admitted so we settled on Saturday(tomorrow) yet he still wanted me there last night but never communicated that to me. I didnt pack anything😩

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

My heart is beyond broken. I am so sick. Picking out my urn at 23 & having to finish writing my “what if” & “goodbye” letters is too much for me to handle🤢😔💔

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Especially in my hip/left leg. This is nuts

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Everything is destroyed... Right when I was getting my appetite back, my cancer comes back STRONG & WICKED. The pain is unreal

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

My disease burden is at 95% in my bone marrowwhich means forsure I’m going to die.. now I’ll be rushed up to moffitt in the next couple of days in hope of it getting better.. 😭😭

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

I’m so scared for what’s gonna happen tomorrow at the new doctors. There’s so many tests and I’m already in so much pain from my biopsy 😭😭😭😭🤢😭

[HOOD VOGUE is tired of poverty @keyon]

New Girl was really sitcom excellence. The last of the good ones tbh.

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Omg my ass hurts so badly all the way down my leg.. I’m so scared

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

I literally can’t have ONE thing in my life go my way or Atleast semi right. I’m just so upset it hurts to breath. I haven’t ate in 4ndags & I’m mainly upset about that

[CJ👑 @littlehamm23]

Everytime I come home from a hospital my heart breaks even further.. nothing is ever the same- something is always missing. I’m never in the shape to go get what I want. I dont want to do this anymore 😔🤢 is not fair. Yeah sounds stupid to most but it’s horrific to experience