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alt account MAIN: @byllogan

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I forgot to censor the k word time for twiiter jail

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I really love the therapist I've seen multiple times in the past and I desperately want to see her again but my insurance is fucking horrible and I have a feeling I'm going to have to pay out of pocket
why is not killing myself this hard and expensive

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

like I think my dog shit memory might be because I literally have never had a way of dealing with stress

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

how the fuck do normal people deal with stress because I'm realizing I simply do not

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

@Daphadilll I just don't get that visceral feeling from music anymore
if I'm ever listening to anything, its 100% for background noise
and seeing the business side of music just drained my love for it
its just weird being consciously aware of this shift from music being everything to nothing

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

idk how this happened but somehow I've reached a point where I genuinely don't like music anymore
I still like songs, but I have absolutely no desire to ever listen to music at all
I prefer silence to music like 95% of the time

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

probably a sign I'm not doing so great mentally ngl

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I want to scream and cry lmao

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I need to go back to therapy

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I'm so FUCKING anxious constantly to the point I don't even realize how anxious I am day to day
but I feel like it's really had effects on how I feel things
I don't remember the last time I felt genuine joy

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I sometimes hate the weight I put on myself
I want to just stop
I can't though
but God, I want to just exist
I'm so stressed constantly

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

every good quality or trait I have feels irrelevant
it feels like there's no reason to try to be my best

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I feel like I'm not heard, and I'm tired of my words being twisted
this time of year is so hard and Im not allowed to not be okay and it's overwhelming

[‡ 𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓 𖤐 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 ‡ @llogansux]

I'm a good partner damnit
I'm tired of being made into a monster for being a normal human

[‡ llogan ‡ @byllogan]

with the risk of Twitter jail once again rising, just a reminder that @llogansux is my backup account

[‡ llogan ‡ @byllogan]

Okay imma make this a thread of PS4->PS1 game cases ive designed

Shadow of the Colossus:
Front Cover - Reverse Side
Back Cover - Inlay

[‡ llogan ‡ @byllogan]

my first, of many new singles, Go Home is officially out 🖤

https://t.co/VPMvcVM2sq