I' Lly

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

I love you forever, my shempay. ☹️💗

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

Questions I’ve been asked so often since my best friend passed away:

“Are you okay now?”
“How are you keeping up?”
“Do you still think of her?”
“Do you still cry often?”
“Have you moved on?”

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

@yangsiopao I love u sexy

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

I miss Shem’s presence so so much

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

Times like this, when it suddenly sinks in that it really did happen — that I actually did saw you in a coffin, actually stood in front of it, and I actually did saw you being buried. It really breaks me over and over again ☹️

Oh, how grief quietly sneaks up on me every day.

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

So, again: I am not okay. In my mind, I’m still standing in front of her coffin on the first day I saw her lying there. I’m still sitting next to her grave after she was buried. And I know I’m not walking out of this cycle anytime soon— because I’m not planning to.

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

Questions I’ve been asked so often since my best friend passed away:

“Are you okay now?”
“How are you keeping up?”
“Do you still think of her?”
“Do you still cry often?”
“Have you moved on?”

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

Do I want this pain to go away? No. I would rather feel this constant ache than risk forgetting she’s gone, because even this pain is a part of her presence in my life.

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

the fuck is going on 😆

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

Bestied so hard that my name was the last thing you tried to write on your mom's hand as you took your final breath.

I love you, forever. @shem

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

please, it hurts so bad. ☹️

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

@adrianpdd_ amaw pinaspasay sad akong pasabot ana amaw

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

everything will be fine, ibreakdown ra nako ni, nya i thirst trap dayon 😆 ALL IS WELL!

[I' Lly @lly_illy]

ayna mog ari sa cebu pls piot na kays kadaghan sa tawo 😭😭