I thought I was able to at least numb myself, but turns out you can never really completely numb yourself out. Sometimes it still stings, and other times it stings a little bit more.
There are days that you're not in the mood to talk to anyone even if it's your friends or relatives noh? You will ignore talking to a certain someone in person, calls, chats, or even on socmed. Not because you don't care but because your mind & body crave silence and inner peace.