when you're lonely, you rush connection. it feels desperate because it is desperate. i remember when i first read nietzsche's line: "the lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters." it devastated me for weeks because i was that person. but i learned the remedy is actually quite simple. real connection can't be rushed or forced. it grows from showing up at the same place, same time, day after day. the barista learns your drink before you order. you learn which regulars come in at 8am and which at 12pm. small nods become quick chats. you become part of the place's daily flow. one coffee shop for three months beats ten coffee shops once. connection isn't made. it accumulates with consistency.
Ion think relationships work unless the BOY likes you more. No matter how much you love him, how many efforts you put, how bad you want him to be yours, it's always going to FAIL. Always choose a man who loves YOU more than you love HIM.
Your life can change very quickly. Don't get discouraged because of what you're going through right now. Practice faith and patience. Good things are coming.
Be kinder to yourself. Think more positive things. How you feel will determine how you experience the future. The way you treat yourself influences your life more than you think.