jay • vent account

I like talking about how lonely and worthless I am ▪︎ they/she ▪︎ 22yo ▪︎ anxiety and depression recovery

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

hi, moots and followers! you're more than welcome to dm me about most topics, vent or just chat. however, I ask that you don't bring up suicidal intentions. I'm not ready to deal with this and can only encourage you to look for professionals and people closer to you for help!

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

when you are inside someone else's bathroom waiting until you stop crying so you can go out and face other people again

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

anyway these are the big updates after 2 months mia here: I have a boyfriend and I finally have a job

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

my self-esteem is so low I had been dating my current boyfriend for a whole month when he said (for the umpteenth time) that he liked me and my answer was "wait do you mean romantically?"

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

happy new year, moots and followers! wishing all of you the best 2024 possible

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

I'm so emotionally constipated

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

why can't they just predend they didn't see anything

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

I hate it when people ask about my sh scars, it's just so awkward to both of us

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

I keep hurting people who care about me

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

about to make the same mistake for the 100th time

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

if the past few days are anything to go by I guess my insomnia is back

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

okay only 2 of them

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

before I even open my spotify wrapped I'm gonna bet that the titles of at least 3 out of my top 5 songs include the words lonely, alone, loneliness

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

this weekend my brain spent 90% of the time alternating between the same 3 unpleasant thoughts

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

when I'm anxious and trying to act normal my laughter sounds so fake, I wonder if other people notice it

[g a b y @gabydvj]

does anyone know how i can cure myself of the specific brain disease that makes me dread tasks and put them off indefinitely until i do them and it's totally fine. is there some kind of drug i can take

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

I'm so insecure but at the same time I think everyone is obsessed with me

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

I have been so social this week my doctors would be proud!!

[jay • vent account @lonely_vent]

me: I'm gaining weight I should do some exercise

also me: I deserve a drink after my workout. an alcoholic one.