Actor William Fichtner explains how the lowest point of his career, long before his success, became the turning point that kept him going:
He shares a moment from his early days in New York when everything he'd worked for felt like it was slipping away.
"I think I was 30 years old and I was in New York and I hit the end of the road. I ran out of money. I had no commercial residual. I had nothing."
After a few years of scraping by, a little money in theater and a few residuals from commercials, he had to go back to waiting tables. And it crushed him to compare himself to everyone he'd come up with:
"I felt like I was falling backwards and I was 30 now. Everybody that I knew I graduated college with [had] a company car and I was just... it was depressing."
He describes the morning he went to ask for a brunch shift at the White Horse Tavern in the West Village, a place he knew people went to:
"I woke up. I was brushing my teeth. I started crying. I really was. I was walking that street going, 'Just, it's all right, man. It's all right. You're not falling backwards. You're not going off the end of the earth.'"
On the walk, it got worse before it got better. He passed someone from his past:
"I passed a guy that I hadn't seen in a couple of years that was like kind of like an old friend. And I said hi to him and he walked by and he just kind of looked at me like he didn't recognize me. It was horrible. It was just horrible."
Then he walked into the restaurant, and the manager met him with hostility, telling him he was on the schedule the day before, hadn't even started, and was already fired.
But instead of breaking him, it freed him:
"I said, 'Thank you.' I walked out of there. I said, 'I have absolutely nothing right now and I'm feeling so good and I'm not working at your f****** restaurant today, buddy.'"
He went home to find a place to re-energize. Looking back, that brutal day became a great one:
"Just great, great day."
The lowest point can feel like proof you're failing, but sometimes it's just part of the process. Years before his success, that morning could have ended his career. Instead it became the turning point that kept him going.