I'd truly be the one to not give any signs that I'm calling it a day on this thing called life. I'd just be gone. Just another nothingness into the cosmos. Bliss.
Mam stark was so happy and content the other day when she visited. I miss that so much. He's still happy with just me, but it's still just me. Fucking sucks. Wish I could do it all over.
Just as I thought, no one's really planning much of anything for my 30th lol. Like, would have been cool if I were surprised like I've always wanted but suppose that's just not in the cards for me
We have such a beautiful pup that we put so much love into. A home that we put so much love into. And I couldn't keep it together. Such a fucking failure lol.
One thing I had to look forward to today was my new computer being delivered and of course they come early for the first fucking time ever. Can't win. I'm so annoyed