i just lost my fucking job right when i’m ready to leave this nigga and focus on me & my son wtf bro like God i really don’t understand no more bro 🤦🏽♀️
I take full responsibility when I am wrong. But I will not apologize for how I react when you humiliate, disrespect, and deliberately provoke me. You don't get to do both. There's a tactic that doesn't get talked about enough. They push. They poke. They chip away at your dignity with little digs, public embarrassments, and deliberate provocations — and then the moment you respond, suddenly you're the problem. Suddenly you're "too emotional.Suddenly your reaction becomes the entire story and everything they did to trigger it conveniently disappears. That's not an accident. That's a strategy. Reactive abuse is real. And it works because good people feel guilty for finally snapping after being endlessly patient. They count on your conscience. They count on you apologizing for breaking when they spent weeks trying to break you. Your response was never the issue. The behavior that caused it was.
Sorry, but a partner who ruins your mental health cannot be the love of your life. Ever. I know you love them. I know you've built a future in your mind with them. I know you keep hoping they’ll change, that things will get better, that the good moments will eventually outweigh the bad.
But here's the truth you need to hear: real love doesn't destroy you. Real love doesn't leave you anxious, depressed, constantly questioning yourself, walking on eggshells, or losing pieces of who you are. That's not love, that's trauma bonding.
Once you betray me, you lose that version you once had of me forever. Whether I choose to forgive you or not, you'll never get that same me again and it's not even intentional.. my heart won’t view you the same, my soul would tolerate you the same & my mind won't ever forget it.
MY babydaddy AINT ON CHILD SUPPORT BUT SIS HEAR ME OUT RIGHT 🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾‼️To the Babydaddies that say "oh my bm put me on child support cus she mad and bitter that I dont want her"... NOOOO WAY HOZAYYY😭😭bruh!, she Mad because yo azz can wake up everyday and walk around like you aint got responsibilities that need to be taken care of 🤏🏾🤏🏾she Mad because when you fall short she gotta pick up that slack 🤌🏾she Mad because she dont get to pick and choose when she gon take care of her kids 🤌🏾she Mad because she didnt make a child by herself but at the end of the day she gotta make sure they dont go without🤌🏾and she Mad because she shouldnt have to ask you for simple sht 🤏🏾so next time you speak on the Mother of your child and why she do the sht she does, ask yourself "am I doing what im supposed to be doing as a Father"... cus i promise if it was about yall being together, some of yall aint too hard to get🤷🏽♀️ ijs🤌🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾🤏🏾
No disrespect to anyone, but God please don't send me another partner who doesn't know how to communicate, take accountability, or emotionally show up. I don't want a partner who's still battling their own issues, avoiding healing, depressed, or emotionally unavailable and refusing help. I don't want a partner who can't stand firm, speak with clarity, or take control of their own life.
I have so much going on in my personal life I don't mention. I just pray, wake up, smile, and do what I got to do... like shit normal. One thing about life that shit just don't stop. Got to take shit to the chin every time!
When I leave people alone, I genuinely think I’m giving them what they want. Cuz it’s no way you did what you did & expected me to believe you still wanted me around.
one of the main reasons i’m so gentle with myself is cause i believe i’ve already experienced enough hardship in my life. i’ve already been mishandled and undervalued by others and myself at times. so i deserve more patience, forgiveness, and consideration at this point.
I really owe myself an apology. For staying in places where I felt I wasn't wanted, but chose to hold on anyway. For trying to fix bonds that were already dead. For putting people first who would never have done the same for me. I knew better, but I kept giving chances. I kept showing up for folks who didn't appreciate me. So now I'm holding myself accountable, because I should.
getting cheated on & not knowing you getting cheated on will change you. getting lied to & not knowing you’re getting lied to will change you. Getting done any kind of way that ain’t right will change you. I commend people that can just not care or stay overly sweet after people continue to hurt them & let them down fr. Hurt makes you angry, triggered, annoyed, a change your attitude fr. Cause, you really didn’t have to do me that. & you really played me so good to the point I couldn’t even see through you.