i’m afraid of the sun so i wear sun screen and sun glasses and all this stuff doesn’t scare you when you’re young but when you get older it’s like oh skin cancer cataracts that could happen to me, time to start caring
and like i’m just not in the mood to interact you know? like i don’t want to talk smile chat to anyone i want to observe i want to watch i want to listen but i don’t want to do any of the interacting myself
i wish i could paint my nails cute colors again but im like so scared of skin cancer and you can get it on ur nails so it’s like… an urge of me to check my nails every morning for skin cancer but i can’t check if there’s polish covering it
sometimes i feel so so lonely like and i can’t shake it and i do this to myself where i push everyone away bc i cannot trust anyone but then sometimes i regret it like all the work i put into keeping people out but i can’t change anything bc like.. i just am this way you know