anne

crohn’s

[anne @lostandthin]

is anyone on twt anymore

[anne @lostandthin]

i’m cold

[anne @lostandthin]

i keep having abdominal cramping i’m scared im in a flare up

[anne @lostandthin]

i have to get more coffee

[anne @lostandthin]

my friend has a floater in her eye like at all times and she will probably need eye surgery and now i have a new irrational fear!

[anne @lostandthin]

i’m afraid of the sun so i wear sun screen and sun glasses and all this stuff doesn’t scare you when you’re young but when you get older it’s like oh skin cancer cataracts that could happen to me, time to start caring

[anne @lostandthin]

why does scar tissue take so long to get stronger and build up it’s like so weak at first i need it to be strong

[anne @lostandthin]

my fissure? is back but i hope it doesn’t turn into a fistula

[anne @lostandthin]

and like i’m just not in the mood to interact you know? like i don’t want to talk smile chat to anyone i want to observe i want to watch i want to listen but i don’t want to do any of the interacting myself

[anne @lostandthin]

i’m not up for it today i’m mentally tired

[anne @lostandthin]

i wish i could just be done with therapy im so tired of going but i know it makes me better so i have to im just

[anne @lostandthin]

but the good news is that’s why it was hurting so bad it’s not the disease coming back it’s bc it’s infected rlly bad

[anne @lostandthin]

she doesn’t know how the bacteria got in there so i’m hoping it goes away i have to change the bandages even more now and it hurts but im managing ok

[anne @lostandthin]

i got an infection in one of my surgeries so my doctor is trying to fix it without me getting admitted and on iv antibiotics :/

[anne @lostandthin]

i’m sleepy

[anne @lostandthin]

i wish i could paint my nails cute colors again but im like so scared of skin cancer and you can get it on ur nails so it’s like… an urge of me to check my nails every morning for skin cancer but i can’t check if there’s polish covering it

[anne @lostandthin]

idk why it’s like i need to take out my contacts but im so lazy i cant but my eyes are hurting and i need to get up and do itt., ok im getting up

[anne @lostandthin]

and like i would be more miserable if i didn’t keep people away and i prefer it this way but sometimes.. sometimes i feel so so lonely

[anne @lostandthin]

sometimes i feel so so lonely like and i can’t shake it and i do this to myself where i push everyone away bc i cannot trust anyone but then sometimes i regret it like all the work i put into keeping people out but i can’t change anything bc like.. i just am this way you know

[anne @lostandthin]

i love a good nice cozy oversized baggy cute warm sweater