@angelicalisms oh. . . alright. uh, well...
( there's an obvious struggle to not show her disappointed reaction )
. . . i guess i can go do something somewhere so i don't get in your way. maybe i can pick up an extra shift at the bar or... something.
โ eitherโฆ โ
a soft laugh, gaze a mixture of brown and dark blueโฆ she was nervous and full of sorrow.
โ i โฆ get paid by a higher up forโฆ my services. i met a few members lately, felix and changbin especially are very friendly. โฆ are you happy with them? โ
โ it hasโฆ and donโt worry, iโm not angry at youโฆ the system, perhapsโฆ angels as a whole, yesโฆ โ
thereโs a small shrug and then a smile, โ i didnโt meant to find you, actuallyโฆ iโm getting close to some of the other members of your groupโฆ not that i meant to do that โ
his eyes widen at her words, as the pieces finally click into place - of course. that's why they seem so familiar to him. she was there, back then. his expression is one of shock, but also a bit of wonder. wondering how she found him. why.
" i remember now ", he says. " it's+
" a long time ago... "
there's a small shrug of her shoulders, " way before i fell. "
her gaze looked away now, sadness seen still, " it's amusing how many angels watched me fall, said it served me right... and how many of them fell too. though, that may not have been you. "
at first, hyunjin shakes his head ' no '. he doesn't. although the other does seem familiar, somehow. but he can't put his finger on it.
" i'm sorry, have we met ? "
โ and if something happens at the bar? . . . i can call you after, if you want me to... so you don't have to find out another way and worry about me. "
then a small shrug, " some of my regulars are really sweet... he leans on being kind of cocky but he's not bad... "
" he doesn't hurt me, chan... he... sometimes gets intense but... he's nothing compared to the guys at the bar, i promise. "
her hand went to gently caress his cheek with a small smile, " i have to earn what i make or else i feel horrible about it. i'll be okay, i promise you โ
" so he does hurt you. "
it wasn't a question, his expression darkening at the thought. it made his blood boil.
" i could help you if you'd let me . . . you don't have to do this, tianshi. "
" you aren't screwing anything up, come on... come sit on the couch. "
moving over to him to offer out a hand, " i was playing around, i promise. you're fine, i'm not offended nor am i upset. "
there's a reassuring smile, " i was just saying chan is protective of me. "
Huh? No! I mean, not that it's bad, no as inโ sorry that's not what I meant, Iโ I'm totally screwing this.
( covers his face, sitting on the floor in sheer embarrassment )
โ donโt think he has it in him to give me more than a few bruisesโฆ โ
a soft laugh, though she was plenty aware that it wasnโt funny.
โ the normal kinds from when things get too intense, not the kind i learned this makeup forโฆ โ
a small shrug, โ iโll be okay. โ
โ itโs my job, you knowโฆ โ
it was murmured softly, โ and what i do with himโฆ it isnโt under the protection of my boss. โ
a glance towards the hallway leading to the office before looking back at him, continuing with touchups on the makeup sheโd applied to his skin.
โ i โ
" i know, i believe you . . . but . . . . "
another sigh as he thinks about the past for a moment, about the things he's had to endure as a trainee. unspeakable things.
" i'm just worried about you ", he says instead of disclosing those, completing the pinky swear with his+
thereโs a gentle touch to his shoulder, โ honestly, heโs not horribleโฆ and if something happens and that changes, youโll be the first person iโll go toโฆ i promise. โ
holding up a pinky now, giving a small smile, โ i pinky swear. โ
" as long as it works for you and he's content . . . . though i don't like that you have to resort to this. "
the last part is muttered softly, shoulders dropping with a sigh.