venus ~ in recovery

23y/o, any pronouns, granola girl, and pro-recovery! basic dni + minors & fatphobes dnf | pfp is not me |

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

#shedtwt intro ~ updated

- 23y/o
- autistic
- any pronouns
- hsw | ugw: 130lbs
- stoner | anorexic
- kinda fluent in: 🇺🇸|🇲🇽|🇩🇪|🇧🇷
- basic dni + minors & fatphobes dnf

i’ve lost a ton of moots so… follow to be moots. I have random inactive moments but I always comeback!

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Sometimes i get reminded that I need to stop eating and today is one of those days :(

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Especially during a time when genuinely everyone is lowkey ignoring me besides them so it was nice to not feel so alone for the holidays for once even if it wasn’t irl. The worst part is that I was actually willing to consider recovering and maybe committing to it. Kms ig.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

I got attached to someone else. I need to stop, it genuinely hurts worse each time. I hope I misunderstood but I don’t think I did and just… I need to shut up more often. I need to stop eating this doesn’t happen when I fast and and and and idk. I’m sorry

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

At least it’s not my fault but I feel like it is. I shouldn’t have opened up. I. Shouldn’t. Have. Gotten. Attached. I KNOW BETTER???? Idk. I’m still crying and idk if it’s just to hurt me so I’ll no longer care them but I hope they know all its making me do is spiral

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

They don’t have access to this account thankfully, because I’ve realized I’ve gotten attached a little and that’s not good for me. But I don’t wanna back away and it’s a little overwhelming because of some irl things I have going on and idfk. They’re winning ig.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

I think I should just shut the fuck up and kill myself.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

It’s getting bad again and idk if I get myself out of this hole

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

When does recovery get easier? It was going well but, I’m honestly convinced that was just me being delusional atp and it keeps happening and I stg I’m closer to a full blown relapse than I am any closer to fully committing to recovery. It’s been months now.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

@Jasonggggg30196 If it’s not publicly available your ageless account ass doesn’t need it. 🤷

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

#shedtwt intro ~ updated

- 23y/o
- autistic
- any pronouns
- hsw | ugw: 130lbs
- stoner | anorexic
- kinda fluent in: 🇺🇸|🇲🇽|🇩🇪|🇧🇷
- basic dni + minors & fatphobes dnf

i’ve lost a ton of moots so… follow to be moots. I have random inactive moments but I always comeback!

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Also. Im doing better now, recovery is going really well!! First month was god awful but doing much better atm!!

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

I need to tell one of yall that you give the same vibe as a singer to me and I forgot my password so I had to reset and I made twitter angry and can’t dm so 🫠

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

I’m not okay in the slightest and I’m sorry that I keep using this as a vent account now. I’m sorry y’all, recovery has been shit and I’ve been back to starving myself and cutting myself and yea. Idk. I just realized I don’t have the time left that I thought I did and- yea. 🧡

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

typed up an entire rant only for it to not save and delete itaelf. im actually jusy gonna kms ig lmao- fuck it.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Tfw I get yelled at for not sharing food and then she wonders why I hide food from her. Jfc I should’ve never recovered so I could have stayed buying food that people don’t want.

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Fwb forced me to eat last night btw, she’s a long term friend who knows about my ed and took my bad tasting chicken fries + leftover parmesan cheese and turned them into caesar salads for us o7

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

tw: vent, nsfw, idk what else just a lot of caution and read at your own discretion

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Ik recovery isn’t easy but like I’m taking this as a sign that I should’ve never recovered because I am so so exhausted y’all. I keep giving everything my all only to then be the worst person ever… with how everything is going I might end up hospitalized soon 🫠
Trigger warning-

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

@WING3DCREATURE Im Midwestern & picked it up at a psych ward in Tennessee as a kid and have said it ever since. But, as an adult had another Midwestern cyber bully tf outta me for saying it so um- some do, some don’t, others bully you if you’re not southern and say it 😂

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

You ever get reminded that you actually just don’t deserve to exist, cause that’s about where I’m at with recovery rn and idk how to process it besides smoking a fuckton of weed and eating a ton of mashed potatoes while I cry🧍

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

@mariastrves I don’t remember and since I’m in recovery, I don’t really wanna check. However- I am probably the worst one to ask because my experience has been that of a diabetic rather than just looking for that side effect to happen. I’m sorry /gen

[venus ~ in recovery @lostinmymental]

Ongoing thread of my experience taking metformin for weight loss for #edtwt and anyone curious!

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