This economy is whooping everybody’s asş. Please DO NOT feel embarrassed about your financial situation right now. A lot of people are struggling, and we’re all just doing the best we can to get through it.
Some people will swear that you are the problem. Yet, after you leave, their lives remain exactly the same: the same habits, the same issues, and the same chaos. That is when it hits you; it was never you. They just need someone to blame so they don't have to face themselves.
It’s never really about the smoke when I’m alone… it’s about that still moment where everything in my head gets loud. Memories start playing, choices get questioned, old people get missed, dreams feel close and far at the same time… and somehow, in all that noise, I find a kind of quiet that only I understand.