This is free advice from an expensive psychologist.
If you're an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don't make everything a matter of life and death.
to every woman that needs to hear this: there are good men out there. Men who listen instead of dismissing you. Men who take accountability, communicate, apologize, and make you feel safe, seen & appreciated. You're worthy of healthy love, and it's out there. Don't settle 🥺