WHY AM I SO FAR BEHIND EVERYONE MY AGE WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO DO THE SAME THINGS AS EVERYONE ELSE WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL AND NOT STRUGGLE OR BE SCARED OF EVERYTHING
spend one single day not looking at a screen. i know this is easier said than done but just for one day do literally anything else. read a physical book. go for a walk in the park. do jumping jacks in your room. stare at the wall. listen to an album from your teenage years
there is a reason you are distracting yourself and if you stop for a day you will find out what it is. for this encounter you must cultivate courage. there is an ocean to cross, there is a dragon to face. we tell stories about heroes for a reason and as silly as it sounds, for you right now, this is that reason. the forces arrayed against you are mighty but help is available should you seek it. good luck and may god be with you