j ♡

✧˖°. she/her | 22 | vegan 🌱

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

#favmealsofedtwt 🥜
one of the staples of my childhood

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

obviously i knew he would have his 2 days/mth and 2 weeks in the summer and every so often training or camp or things like that but the idea of deployment sends me into a spiral and for some reason it never hit me?? like i never fully took in that was a possibility

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

lowkey i am extremely fucking depressed because my bf is leaving for 2.5 months for his military training and he’s actually my best friend ;( i have other friends of course but nothing compares to him and he’s leaving in a little over 2 weeks

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i’ve been thinking about this since he had that dream about me having an ED (lol) when he got deployed in his dream. and now that he’s leaving for a few months it’s all hitting me the reality of everything and it’s all so fucking scary. i need to talk to him more ab everything

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i will be skinny again in 2026 🗣️🗣️

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i will be skinny in 2019

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

boyfriend told me he had a dream about me having an ED…. haha yeah what if!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 am i right ladies???🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 couldn’t be me 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

NOT HIS TEXT but the movie part

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

guys 😭😭😭😭

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i’m just going to ignore it entirely bc i know it Will be Bad if i don’t

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i just felt so hopeless and helpless, like the world was ending because i ate too much earlier. that was a scary feeling

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

felt like i actually have a problem for the first time in a long time. still don’t feel valid or skinny enough to have an ED. but i started hysterically crying bc i thought my bf was implying he wanted to hang out today instead of tomorrow & i needed to take lax bc i had too much

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i haven’t actually purged by throwing up in so long and i can’t believe i started to try, i ended up stopping because i felt like i shouldn’t end the streak of not doing it. my bf ended up saying tomorrow is still good anyway

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

@saintofwh0res it’s a real struggle 😭

[✰ @dontcountcals_]

real.

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i love him though dearly i don’t know what i would do without him

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

i’m trying to play it off as i don’t have an ED since i’m a normal weight but i fear my bf is onto me

[j ♡ @lovelycravings]

actually feel bad bc he looked so sad talking about it and his eyes watered a little 😭 i can NOT let him know, he cares about me too much, i would never get to my ugw😭