K

Consummate optimist.

[K @lovingthyyself]

ALIFETIMEINJURY

[K @lovingthyyself]

Half of my life lol

[K @lovingthyyself]

Things were supposed to be very different by now. But I understand that this is not the appropriate time for me to go for it. Just an additional year. I know this does not mean I'm losing it. Then why am I feeling things are getting slipped away from my hands?

[K @lovingthyyself]

This phase might pass, sooner or later, but I shall no longer be able to return to normal life. I don't think I will ever forgive them for what they put me through.

[K @lovingthyyself]

I wish I could start everything over again from the beginning of 2025. Got a hell of a lot to fix.

[K @lovingthyyself]

my life is a mess.

[K @lovingthyyself]

If I ever have to 'return' to my parents' place, may that be my dead body.

[K @lovingthyyself]

Perhaps a long walk with my brother could help :(

[K @lovingthyyself]

This second half of uni life has been nothing but another anguishing chapter I will struggle to get over with hehe.

Been trying so hard to convince myself to stay strong and hold back my tears cause I've this damn expensive sunscreen on my face. Hah!

[K @lovingthyyself]

I can feel the ground shifting beneath my feet.

[Mufti Menk @muftimenk]

Almighty. We pray for healing; from disease, failure, hardship, depression etc. We’re battling fear and worry at every turn. You can heal us in a heartbeat. Take away the pain and grant miraculous healing which only You are capable of. Fill us with hope as we wait. Aameen.

[H’s mom @aiishadahir]

❤️

[K @lovingthyyself]

Sudden realisation: I'm damn expert at rubbing salts into my own wounds.

[H’s mom @aiishadahir]

Kun faya kun- Allah will surprise you with what you had hoped for and considered impossible.

[K @lovingthyyself]

Where should I hide this astronomical amount of grief?
I can't.

[H’s mom @aiishadahir]

In Tahajjud, Ask the impossible, Allah has no limits

[K @lovingthyyself]

So then what is this home I keep longing for? Is it just a feeling prolonged by agonizing past traumas and bitter stress over present and future?

[K @lovingthyyself]

I want to be at home. When I say 'home' I don't mean that place in my hometown where my family lives. I used to think that place to be my home untill every time memory jolts me how I almost strangled to death there,

[K @lovingthyyself]

I am a guest there, maybe I always have been. I never truly belonged to anything called 'home'.

[K @lovingthyyself]

Life is becoming a twisted mystery. I better just lean into it.

[• @Al__Quraan]

They said “go where you are valued.” So i ran back to Allāh.