Angel ʚ ɞ

i don’t belong here.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

17 y/o anonymous. diagnosed: depression, general anxiety, panic disorder, schizophrenic, ptsd, ocd, adhd, did, anorexic🫀 private space, not looking for attention

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

USC ♥️

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

oh im panicking again.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

i dream of you.

(please make it stop).

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

You know what’s really painful?
The quivering smile of someone about to cry.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

I wish the world had ears.
Maybe if it did,
It could hear my cries
And make it okay.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

It was years ago. It was years ago and it feels so stupid to bring up because I should be over it and I should be okay but I’m not. I’m not. I’m not.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

Truth is, I’m not okay. Time doesn’t make the pain any easier, you just learn to forget. But the problem is, I can’t help but remember. Constantly reliving the trauma, and having to not say a word.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

I think a large portion of my heartache comes from everything that’s left to be forgotten and never remembered.
I think it’s so painful to realize that your favorite moments are forever over, and nobody else will know how special it was. Because how could they ?

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

Sure, it was years ago and only just kids. But I really loved you. And you really hurt me. I was never the same after that.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

Yeah- but—it really did matter to me.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

It’s officially panic season.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

I don’t know I’m so in-between life and death. I feel like I could go either way, and every day it’s just a flip of a coin. I want to live, but I’m absolutely miserable. Nobody knows how hard it’s been. Nobody helps. I don’t have anything.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

I feel like on the outside I seem really okay. Like way too okay and sometimes I even think it’s weird how well I just seem to act. I feel like I do and act towards the future like I’m so sure it exists, but in reality I think I’m going to die. In fact, I wish to die.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

I think about stopping mid-sentence and leaving everything behind. Bringing the pain to an end. I think about it so often, I feel like it’s just around the corner. Like there’s no other way out, and I’m just killing time until then.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

All I’d need is an “I miss you”.

I feel like I can’t be fixed.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

When I lost her it really broke me. She was the first person that I thought was beautiful in such a long time. She made me believe that I could be happy.

[Angel ʚ ɞ @lowkeyukio]

It feels like shit. I could’ve chose an easier life, but I didn’t. And I’m full of regret because I’ll never know if I made the right decision.

[sad bean 🌱 @idkdudeimsad]

it’s none of my business & i gotta remember that. so imma hold my tongue & not ask for answers i don’t want.

[aliz @user020182]

U Cant Hurt Me ill just do drugs & forget U exist 、😽