My life is changing in ways I never expected.
I have to find my happiness. My purpose.
Which means I have to put my wrestling journey on pause for the time being.
I might return one day, once I discover who I am.
But for now, I'll be here, looking to to learn who I am.
I'm not going to lie.
I struggle during Pride month because my brain is constantly reminding me that I don't belong. That I have no identity. That I don't truly exist.
She was drunk and I tried to use humor to say no. I don't mess with drunk people (sober consent required) and I didnt want to hurt her feelings by straight up saying no.
but I am not sure if making that joke was the right thing in retrospect
Life’s about learning.
I’m Pan, but I’m also pretty ace a lot of the time.
I like mingling with friends, but I’m also demisexual. So those bonds mean much more to me than others.
Be proud of who you are, even if you’re still learning who you are
I love you 💜
Haibane Renmei was an anime that wrecked me so completely when I watched it that I sank into a depression for months. Not because it was sad, not because it was depressing, but because it connected to me in a way that nothing ever had before (or has sense).
I've been thinking about it a lot lately. And I kind of want to rewatch it. With older eyes, more experience, more life behind me, I want to see if the show still strikes me to the core.
But I'm afraid. Not that it won't live up to the memory of it. But that it will.
https://t.co/ke6jv8yQgZ
It's been a week, from running Blood on the Clocktower at CoolFest in Columbia, MO, seeing Spamalot with my wife and partner of 15 years, & eating chilidogs at the Sonic the Hedgehog Cafe -we end the week with a new focus of trying to learn how to balance
I don't know if I am in a bad headspace or if I am just starting to finally accept that I'll never have the type of relationship I want with certain people and I should just give up on trying