anyways i gotta lock in and stop self loathing and make change happen, just hard. i have my nephew over this weekend too. so ima be so busy for a bit and probably wont be able to deadlock with anyone until the weekend after that
Not making excuses but a lot of times ppl with BPD are actually pretty chill when they’re not around people who constantly trigger them and make them feel crazy.
ptsd: something terrible happened to you.
complex ptsd: something terrible WAS your entire environment and you had to just live in it. there was no escape.