Gantikan kesakitan yang ku alami selama ini dengan segala perkara yang dapat membahagiakan aku di dunia dan di akhirat.
Bimbing aku ke jalanMy ya Allah.
Sesungguhnya aku hambaMu yang berdosa.
Semoga hari-hariku dipermudahkan olehMu. Limpahkanlah rezeki kecukupan buatku.
ุขู ูููู
Peluk aku ya ุงููููู.
Ketika aku tak dapat mengawal diri aku seteruk itu lagi, peluk lah aku. Bimbing hambaMu ini.
Aku sedar aku tidak seharusnya sedikit pun berharap pada manusia ciptaan Mu. Kuatkan jati diriku, berikan aku semangat untuk meneruskan hidup untukMu.
I search for peace in places where answers never came,
Trying to understand what cannot be changed.
And perhaps the hardest battle of all
Is learning to be gentle with myself.
One day, I hope I will forgive myself
For every wound I've blamed myself for bearing.
ุณููููู ููููุจูุชู ูฑููููฐูู ู ูููุงูู ูฑููุฌูุฑูุญู ุฒูููุฑูุง
Allah will cause flowers to bloom where your wounds once were
Jadikanlah bagi setiap kesedihanku suatu kelegaan, bagi setiap kesempitanku suatu jalan keluar, bagi setiap ujian suatu kesejahteraan.
Kurniakanlah rezeki kepadaku dari arah yang tidak pernah aku sangka. Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih daripada segala yang mengasihi.
ุขู ูููู
Ya Allah, jika dosaku menjadi penghalang antara diriku dan kemakbulan doaku, maka ampunilah aku.
Jika dosaku menjadi sebab rezekiku menjadi sempit, maka terimalah taubatku dan luaskanlah rezekiku dengan limpah kurniaMu.
Bersihkanlah hatiku dengan keampunan-Mu, sucikanlah jiwaku dengan rahmat-Mu, dan bukakanlah bagiku pintu-pintu kurnia serta keredaan-Mu.
Ya Allah, janganlah Engkau kembalikan aku dalam keadaan hampa, janganlah Engkau halang kebaikan yang telah Engkau tetapkan untukku.
Youโre about to release all the pressure to be someone youโre not.
Youโre going to live free from the ideas that you must follow specific timelines.
Your next chapter is coming, my friend. Itโs going to be peaceful. It will be the healing youโve always wanted.
Your next chapter is going to be so beautiful. Youโre going to breathe. Youโre about to finally rest, knowing that youโve come so far
Youโre going to see why things happened the way they did. The weight on your back is about to be lifted. Soon, very soon, youโll be smiling again
Youโre about to build a life that you wonโt have to escape from. Youโre about to go on adventures that were once just dreams for you.
Youโre about to grow in confidence, in your self awareness and comfortable in your own skin.
Starting over isnโt something neat or inspiring at first, but a confusing, chaotic, lonely process.
You might feel like a stranger in your own life, as if nothing you used to believe in makes sense anymore.
But this isnโt a failure; this is the beginning.
๏ทฝ
Sometimes rebuilding yourself means completely tearing yourself down, destroying the idea you had of yourself, what you thought you wanted.
The life youโve tried so hard to hold together โ and by God yes, it does hurts. Perhaps to a point where youโd think youโd never recover.
One thing Iโve noticed about women with depth is that they rarely speak in absolutes. Life has humbled them too many times for that. They know good people can make terrible decisions.
They know love doesnโt always save a relationship and timing can ruin something beautiful.