It’s because you see yourself as of no value and can’t ADD to the beauty you saw to begin with. You basically see yourself as ugly and everything you touch becomes ugly.
I won’t shut up about this, pancreatic cancer kills a person in 4 months btw, it’s resistant to radiotherapy, and fucks two essential parts of the metabolism. this could change the world
that’s another depriving feature of the state of the economy rn, it isn’t allowing for the “natural” progression of life. we are financially stuck in child phases and it’s frustrating because time is not stuck yona.